Monday 1 February 2010

Enter the crypt

I'm feeling completely on edge today.

But not in a bad way. Well, maybe in a slightly bad way. I feel like I'm at a crossroads and it perplexes me. It's time to make some big decisions. Big, scary, potentially life changing decisions. Decisions that could take me far from here, or not so far at all. Decisions that could affect my whole career, life, future happiness et al. There are things in the pipeline that are potentially very exciting but something's niggling me. A little voice at the back of my head. The same little voice that tells me I'm not good enough or that I look too fat in that dress. The voice that is 99% quieter than it used to be but that still rears its ugly head occasionally.

I'm being cryptic I know and for that I apologise. But, for now, crypticity (is that even a word?) is wholly necessary. At least until my poor befuddled brain works out what it wants. What it really, really wants. (Check me out with my mid-90's pop references, I'm so topical)