Tuesday, 30 June 2009

Step back in time

4 weeks ago... I was the happiest I've ever been. I felt like I had the world in my hands. Finally things had slotted into place. Finally everything seemed clear and secure and certain.

3 weeks ago... I knew something was wrong. But I was sure it was fixable and I still felt happy. The future felt bright.

2 weeks ago... Things crashed down, without reason or explanation.

1 week ago... I was so excited about Glastonbury I couldn't help but be happy, despite everything. It was a chance to forget, or so I thought.

This week...?

This week I can't find much to look forward to. This week the tears fall and I wonder and think and try to understand.

But I can't.

Because it doesn't have to be this way. Not this time. We worked so hard. We came so far. It doesn't have to be this way.


last year's girl said...

Oh, sweetheart. Thinking of you.

Helen said...

Thanks Lis. It means a lot x