Thursday, 16 April 2009

Blue moon...

Today I feel blue...

There are a few reasons for this, such as post holiday blues, a lack of money and the fact I haven't managed to drag myself to the gym yet to try and combat holiday cupcakes and burgers. But the main reason? I've let down one of the people I care the most about in the whole world. And I've let myself down.

I try so hard to be the person I want to be and, most of the time, I am. In fact, I don't even need to try anymore. But there's this 2% of the time when I just really don't like myself and the things I do. The times are few and far between these days but sometimes I express myself in ways that I shouldn't. I just get so frustrated and sometimes I don't know how to deal with it. But, mark my words, it will never happen again. I can promise that. I will never let you down again.

I don't know what else to say but I'm sorry.

Ridiculously, deeply sorry from the bottom of my stupid heart.

Don't mind me. Normal service to be resumed shortly with the blog post to end all blog posts. My big fat NYC review.